For the past couple of week’s, I’ve been taking Gabby Bernstein’s Spirit Junkie Masterclass. It’s been an amazing experience and has helped me uncover another layer in my healing journey.
During week 2 she talked all about fear. We all have fear and fear is always the thing that is holding us back from what we want. Even when we have exactly what it is that we want there’s still fear hiding in the shadows, slowly inching its way into our minds. We spend so much time and energy running away and doing everything we possibly can to avoid the fear. But what if instead of running away from it you allowed to feel it fully? How do you think that might change the way you feel about fear? Maybe the things you are truly afraid of might not be that bad. Maybe you realize it’s just a story you’ve told yourself, but that story isn’t true.
This was an amazing exercise that she taught me that I want to share with you. Being able to fully embrace your fears does the opposite of what you think it does. It takes the power away from the fear so you can step into the amazing women that you are. Fear will never fully go away, but if you learn how to work with it, instead of against it, fear won’t be able to rule your life. So try this exercise and see how you feel…
“Now, I would like you to take a moment and think about your fear. Eyes closed. This is our meditation. Think about the fears that you’re holding on to. What does it feel like? Identify in your body where you are holding onto that fear. Place your hand on that body part. Start to just feel it. We’re in the most sacred environment we can be in. Start to feel it. Own it, hold it, feel it. Breathing into that fear, what does it feel like? Feel it. Take a deep breath in and hold it, and feel it. Go deeper. This is the safest place you can be in. It is fine to cry. I see it coming. Bring it. This is the healing. Feel the fear. Feel it in your being. Feel it in your body. Feel it in your body fully – feeling it. Let it come. With every breath, deepen the feeling. Let’s go bigger now, breathing deeper even more. Feel even more than you could possibly open up to. Open up even more.
In the presence of that discomfort, in the presence of that fear, in the presence of that story open your eyes. Turn right to your pen and paper and just free-write. What is that fear? Where does it live in your body? Describe it. Write it out. Describe it. Where is it? What does it feel like? Get intimate with it. Give it a color. Give it a name. Give it a voice. Give it a place that it lives. Where did it come from? What does it feel like? Keep writing. Get it all on to the page. The more real you are and the more honest you are, the more you will heal. Start to wrap it up. Clarify where that fear is. What does it look like? What does it sound like? Wrap it up. And as you write that last sentence, close your eyes. Breathe again into that fear. Feel the feeling and the relief. Feel the release. Eyes closed. Hands on your heart. Take one more deep breath into that feeling of that fear and hold it, hold it, hold it, hold it, hold it, hold it, hold it. On the exhale a cannonball breath through your mouth. One more deep breath in, hold it, hold it, hold it, hold it, hold it, hold it, hold it, hold it. Squeeze it tight, hold it, hold it, feel it. Cannonball breath. One last time, hold it, hold it, hold it, hold it, hold it, cannonball breath. Eyes closed.”