Last year I was incredibly sick with Lyme’s Disease. I could barely get off the couch. I had never experienced a level of exhaustion like that before. I was suffering from severe anxiety and panic attacks and a feeling of depression that no matter what I tried I could not shake. It was a real low, dark time for me. My relationships suffered, my business suffered, I suffered. This disease was running my life and I had no idea.
Here is where knowing yourself and your body is super important…
When you know and trust yourself and your body and you know something is not right, you keep fighting until you get the answers you need. The doctors I went to had no idea what was wrong with me. No matter how many tests they ran they could not figure it out, but I knew something wasn’t right. I know my body well enough to know when I feel healthy and when I don’t and I felt the furthest thing from healthy.
I went to every doctor you can think of trying to get answers and…nothing. I felt frustrated, defeated, and hopeless. Was I going to have to live like this forever? Was I ever going to get the answers and healing that I needed? It was a really scary time for me. I hadn’t experienced depression like that since after my sexual assault and the thoughts that raced through my mind scared the crap out of me. I did not want to feel like that anymore, but I didn’t give up. When all of the doctors told me I was normal and healthy I said bull shit. I know myself and my body better than anyone and I KNOW something isn’t right.
When a friend mentioned seeing a holistic doctor that she had been seeing, I felt an immediate spark. I knew instinctively this woman was going to be able to help me. Meanwhile, I still didn’t have a diagnosis; I still had no idea what was wrong with me. Doctors couldn’t figure it out, but I knew I knew deep down that this woman was going to be able to help me.
After our first consultation, she told me I had Lymes. I was in total shock and disbelief. How did this happen? I didn’t have any of the typical signs. But when she described what it felt like to have it, I knew I had found the answer I had been looking for. I knew that this woman was going to be able to help me and I was going to get my health and my life back.
It wasn’t an overnight process it took some time for the Lyme’s to clear, but it eventually did. After it had cleared I could feel my normal self return to my body. The depression, anxiety, and exhaustion lifted and I was me again. It actually brings tears to my eyes thinking about that moment.
This story is about trust. It’s about you knowing your body best. It’s about you knowing YOU best. You know what’s right for you. Don’t let anyone ever tell you otherwise. When you feel like something’s wrong or off, it is. Don’t back down. Keep fighting and standing up for yourself. Ask your higher self/God/spirit to help you. Ask them to lead you to the right people/situations to give you the help that you need. But most importantly trust in yourself wholly and deeply.