I have to be honest, I did not want to write a blog this week. I feel exhausted, both physically and mentally. I have been nonstop with weddings, bridal showers, bachelorette parties, and bridesmaid duties. I’m burnt out from all of the traveling, planning, organizing, lack of sleep, poor eating and lots of boozing. My energy is at an all-time low. All I want to do is crawl into bed and sleep for 48 hours.
I’ve also been dealing with some deeply painful family stuff that I’m working through. Even though I’m working through it, it’s still emotionally draining. Last week I came home and literally didn’t move off of the couch from 1:00 until 9 when I went to bed.
Needless to say, my creativity and inspiration are also at an all-time low.
I thought about skipping this week or sending you guys a previous blog, but I decided to be honest and tell you what’s going on.
My initial thought was to “toughen up” and “power through”. You’re strong Jen. You’ve been through much worse. This is true. I am strong, tough and could power through, but I’m choosing not to.
I’m choosing to allow myself multiple days on the couch in front of the tv. I’m choosing to allow myself to take a yoga class instead of pushing it at the gym. I’m choosing to let myself sleep until 9 instead of waking up at 7. I’m choosing to be honest and write this blog instead of trying to pull something out of my ass that I think sounds inspiring to write about.
I know that this will pass. I know that things will get better. I know that I’m going through this to learn some really important lessons. But for right now, I’m going to allow myself to do things that comfort and nourish me.
It’s up to you to be aware of how you’re feeling, honor that, and follow through with giving yourself whatever you need.